bye LoLa..

i don't reaLLy know where to start..i feeL Like crying but i can't..aLot of things are going through my mind right now..wanted to say/write aLot of things 'bout how i feeL at this moment but it's way too personaL for anyone to read..i just feeL so Low eversince my grandma died Last monday..can't wait for tita dada and tita cora to come home..i just wanted to be around my famiLy..i can't seem to bring up the news with my friends..i just can't bring myseLf to answer their questions on what and how it happened..i just don't feeL Like doing anything at aLL!!! ♀

Letting time pass by..

phones Lines have been crazy tonight and i'm not reaLLy in the mood to work..my grandma's stiLL in the hospitaL, she didn't show much progress over the past 4 days..everybody's been uptight, not to mention tired (physicaLLy, emotionaLLy, spirituaLLy).. but i'm reaLLy thankfuLL for aLL the peopLe praying for her recovery..everybody's optimistic, i just can't think of anything eLse but for her to get better..

i aLso dropped by my friend's wife who just gave birth the other day..she's just a fLoor away from my grandma's room..didn't stay too Long since i have to go to work..

during the start of my shift, i tried watching hancock over the net but then the queue just gets in the way and the buffering was taking forever, so i finaLLy gave up during the Last 26 minutes of the fiLm..i'd probabLy try to finish it tommorrow..

oh! i remember, yesterday i stumbLe on my cousin's bLog and was quite shocked on the things written..i know they're aLL growing up but just can't accept the fact that they encounter too much troubLe..i know it's reaLLy none of my business but i just can't Let my cousins screw their Life up or at Least get into too much troubLe..i miss them a Lot and i hope to see them again..topic of conversation wouLd be a probLem though..

anyway, i onLy have about 2 hours remaining before my shift ends..i reaLLy don't feeL weLL, i want to hit my bed..♀

outing in batangas..

"Nasugbu, Batangas"

(May 02 - 03, 2008)

bad Lost..

just came home after watching my pba team Lost for the second straight time..they Lost on their first game by a mere point..today, it was 2 pts..quite disappointing for the fact that they pretty much Lost due to a very bad free throw shooting..i feeL so down because i rareLy watch them pLay Live and they usuaLLy Lose whenever i do..

"see Link for the fuLL story: http://www.pba.ph/content/view/2051/2/"

makes me think now, if i'm somewhat a jinx to the team..haayz, too bad the tickets were free! weLL, have to move on..good thing, the season's just started..♀

being twenty-something..

"this passage was forwarded to me by my former team mate..i was hesitant to read it first but was struck on the first few sentences..it reminded me on how my cousin wrote his bLog (he turned 21 Last year)..hope you'LL read on!"

"They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis". It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion....."
admit it! you're in this stage of your life too!

One day Love and Friendship met. Love asked Friendship: "Why do you exist if I already exist"? Friendship replied: "To put a smile where you leave tears." But Love snarled back: "Then why, in the first place, did you ask me to take over you? ♀

dinner out..

Sedona Sunset and Maroon Five
"Class 2008"

we had our dinner/team buiLding at "Dad's/ Saisaki/Kamayan" at gLorietta maLL Last mar. 28, 2008..scheduLing the event was very hard since (as usuaL) we can't take our Leaves aLL at the same time..nothing much happened, but we definiteLy enjoyed the food and camwhoring (got the word from rhia and Leyn--ahaha)..♀

"Wacky pose"

hoLy week outing (mar. 21-23, '08)

we went to mt. romeLo Last hoLy week (mar. 21-23, 2008)..it was actuaLLy my 3rd time and aLfie's 4th going there..together with us were his cousins, renier and kuya darwin, pLus their spouses racqueL and ate jo--of course not to forget jacq, a common friend..

caLL time was actuaLLy before 6am, but we aLready hit the road around past 7am..thanks to renier! ahaha..


it took us approximateLy 4 hrs. traveL before reaching sinuLuan and another 2 hours hike going to the camping site..

the usuaL commute was, of course draning and it was onLy jacq, courageous (and stupid--hehe) enough to carry her Load up to the camp site..gosh! bLess her..haha!! ours were brought by a rented horse, ahaha! as the saying goes "di baLe nang tamad, huwag Lang pagod!"..hehe

the pictures above were taken during our second stop..there's Like 3 or 4 stations actuaLLy where you can rest and enjoy the "unLimited buko suppLy"..

the pictures on the Left were taken on our third stop and in buruwisan faLLs (this was actuaLLy on our second day aLready)..it was actuaLLy a bit crowded because of the one's trying the repeLing..

"the pictures on the right were taken naman in Lansones..camwhoring to the max, even everyone's coLd--ahaha!!!"






my onLy regret from this trip was not being abLe to go back to my favorite pLace--"batya-batya".. weLL, aLL thanks to my ever caring bf..

he actuaLLy did not bother to wake me up because he assumed i was aLready too tired..but duh?! at Least Let me know naman where you guys are going di ba?! pero cge na nga bati napo tayo..ahehe!!

"syempre dapat may kanya-kanyang pang friendster primary photos..mga mountaineers kuno..with mga back packs pa yan as props! toinks!.."

"just before heading back home..ayaw paawat!! up to the Last minute, picture taking pa rin..weLL, the pictures on the Left were some rare group pics..thanks sarao!"

besides the bad news before we even got back home, everything was wonderfuL..over aLL, it's aLways a nice break from work..pLus the fact that we got to see and meet new and oLd faces..♀

haiLey's first birthday..

"happy birthday haiLey nicoLe!!"

it was haiLey's first birthday, the party was done in izza's pLace..nothing much happened, we just hang-around their pLace and eat..


haiLey's growing up too fast, she's aLready dancing before she can waLk straight..she's becoming cuter by the day, hope she'LL stay sweet..♀

first anniversary..

finaLLy! can't beLieve we're aLready together for a year!!! i'm not sure how to decribe how i feeL..it seems reaLLy cheezy if i write it down here, so i think i'LL just keep it to myseLf..haha!!

anyway, it was just so funny when he gave me fLowers..it was his first time to give roses to anyone..Like his effort though, i was quite shocked and i kept Laughing inside at the same time fLattered when i saw him with it..

we basicaLLy went out for dinner and movie, it was a bit formaL..i'm not sure why, we used to eat out and watch movie but this one's a bit formaL..haha! we're just both not sure how to ceLebrate an anniv, for this is both our first to even Last that Long in a reLationship..jeje!! Luv u bhie..♀

aLfie’s 24th birthday..

just came from afie’s birthday party Last night..it wasn’t as grand as the usuaL, coz he didn't invite his troop..it was mostLy his co-teachers and famiLy..

i cooked carbonara for him and gave him a neckLace..i can’t reaLLy think of what to give him, i wanted it personaLized but have no time to make one..

anyway, we just ate dinner and sing karaoke songs the whoLe night with his cousins..nothing much but it was cooL! beLated happy birthday bhie..♀